I grew up a Seventh-day Adventist. I went all through grade school and high school in the Seventh-day Adventists system. My parents would read to myself and my siblings every morning Ellen G. White books. At church Ellen G. White was always quoted, in both the children's and adult's Sabbath school classes she was quoted and used to pass judgment onto others. I've always felt judged and never good enough as a person. Because I was a very highly active and energetic child, I didn't fit into the other people's mold. I was always told that I could never say that I was saved and could go to heaven, because I was being judged by God, and that every sin I committed that He would be waiting for me, and would have the Book of my life in His hands and He was waiting to judge my life. I finally said, "Screw it! I'm out of here!" I not only left the SDA church but I left Christianity and became a worldly, atheist, non-believer. There was an event in my life that rocked me to my core. At that point I fell to my knees and cried out to God. He lovingly, graciously, and caringly saved me. I was accepted and loved by non-SDA Christians. After I was accepted by Christ, I wanted to go back to the church I grew up in. When I went back I was judged even harsher than before. The member's displayed a prideful and arrogant attitude that they had the elite truth, and all other denominations are going to hell. They said that I had received my recommitment from a different denominational church without the truth (which the other church kept the Sabbath as well). I started researching the SDA history and have found so many documented facts that the SDA organization has hid from their members. The vision that Ellen G. White claims in her book, Testimonies for the Church, where she saw people walking down a narrow path, which became so narrow at the end that the people could barely remain on the path, and there were chords from the sky that came down to save them. This exact vision was shown to me in 1Nephi chapter 8 in The Book of Mormon, which this book was published in 1830, more than ten years before Ellen G. White became a supposed prophet. The majority of all her visions and books are documented as being plagiarized from other sources. Now I am free and untangling all the programming of lies from Ellen G. White's writings and the Seventh-day Adventists teachings. Now they tell me I'm going straight to hell. I just thank Jesus for His grace, love and mercy, and that I don't need to be perfect to go to heaven (or act that I am perfect and judge others hypocritically when we all are sinners.) Thank you Mr. Slattery for sharing your story; your book has been an encouragement. Thank you for the documentation and facts to help guide where I could find the original source materials from the White Estate for my research.